Im 16 and don't really have a drive to do anything. I just sit around and every now and then go out with my friends. No girlfriend and I would say I have a dull personality unless I know the person I am talking to very well, only talent I seem to have is working with computers and related things (which on some jobs I really doubt myself if I can even do this).
Pretty much the same thing in school. I had basically all F's except for English and I BARLEY passed american history. No religion but I used to go to church on wednesday after school until the end of 6th grade. I didn't really feel like I believed in anything at that time so I saw no point to go and I still beleive in nothing and do not want one because I think it is all bull.
I don't know how it is in other states but in here if you are under 18 you have to get a permit for 6 months until you can get a real drivers license but its like 1 month past my bday and no permit. Thats also a let down to not do anything because I wanted to get a job to actually make some money but I was stupid and didn't get my permit.
It seems like im a zombie going about life just doing things. The only thing I was looking forward to was more harry potter movies but now they are done and the final ones ending wasn't even that good but I guess it was acceptable.
Everything is old, same old people, same old things, same old music. Its all old...Me and my best friend had a fight because of ridiculous thing he did so I didn't talk to him for like 2 month's but now we are talking again since like 3 months and when we started talking he had some new interesting things but now everything is old again. Another odd thing is that this guy was seriously my best friend for like 4 years but when we stopped talking I wasn't sad or anything. Just felt like another thing was gone. Isnt that odd? Is this some type of depression or something? Only thing is that I am just empty. Not sad.
Pretty much all I do right now is sleep a lot, check out new programs for windows, talk to one pretty good online friend and play any games that I can. I am limited to what I can do because my internet is dial up -.- so yea... But I don't have the money to get something like a sprint unlimited data plan because I don't have a job. I watch some TV too but not much. Right now I sleep from like 11:00 AM to like 7:00 PM Because I do not like being awake while my family is. 80% of what they say is either complaining or telling me to do something which I usually never get around to. Is the way my life is justified by how I am feeling?.. Don't know what else to type but yea...Any reason I feel like this?Not much of a drive in life?
I had a similar problem i turned 16 and no permit and no phone until jst recently so i said **** it and got rid of all of my friends and searched for new ones which i found and since then ive been happy i still havent found a good girl that would be suitable so all i can say is keep your chin up and your neck out there and things will occasionally get old thats when i grab the whiskeyNot much of a drive in life?
Very much the thing we older adults in our 40s went thru at your age but we didnt have computers, cell phones, or game boys etc. for our idle time. We burned off energy at the parks basket ball courts etc
Your attitude will soon change and meet new people just hang in there.
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